Little Wonders

Little Wonders

It's 1:30am on a weekday. Tuesday. Loveseat. 

"I like how I have no reason at all to want you because I need something from you. I just want YOU."

Seeing myself through someone else's eyes definitely woke up something in me. I woke myself up from a long sleep of ignorance and suppressed emotions. That chapter has finally come to an end. I have learned what I needed to learn out of it.

CHAPTER GOODNESS - Welcome to my life.

I constantly catch myself in complete awe and wonder when I think of how good life has been these past couple of weeks. I always say this and it's still a daily experience - I am completely blown away by life's surprises. I vow never to live and settle for anything less than the meaning of true happiness. 

I agree that the best things in life are free. 

It's free for us.

It's free for anybody who is open and not afraid to take chances and live in the moment.

Open your eyes to your own little wonders.

Happy Tuesday.

Words Floating in my Head

Wednesday. 7:00am. Bed.

DECISIONS

I am conscious enough (on most days) for this.

CHANCES
What are the odds?

RISKS
Oh they are fun but I always have room for caution.

CHANGES
I'm good at keeping up.

LETTING GO
I can wake up the next day and pretend it never happened.

REGRETS
What for?

DOUBTS
I sleep it off.

QUESTIONS
It fuels my mind.

DEVELOPMENTS
I like moving forward.

EXPECTATIONS
I do not know what to make of it.

I have recently made myself the happiest person alive. I suppose I might be claiming too much, but that's just how I feel at the MOMENT. And if I ever lose my head again, I can always turn things around by thinking differently.

I SEE YOU.

Haachoo!

Tuesday. 5:30pm Los Angeles. Apartment.

So I sit here in silence waiting for darkness to creep in. The whole day I've been feeling like a little child who's been robbed of her crayons. Helpless and very loser-like.

I tried online movies on Netflix and I ended up watching 10 minutes of each one I thought I might like.

I tried playing with my cat Juliet but I figured I needed to see all my loved ones first before she ends me.

It's unpleasant to be sick but it sure is the best time to be selfless and not spread any sort of virus to our entire department at work.

What am I complaining about?

I have been longing for quietness - now I have none but total silence.

Life is Good.